So.
I started a new diet today. Basically just shakes and.. yeah, just shakes. A ton of excersize too, I figure if I do this for a month then I'll get everything set. It's not like i'm overweight, but i'd like to tone everything up and have better confidence. Day one was a little annoying but im told that once you get past day 7 your straight.

Ive been seeing a lot of my friends lately. I also have a friendship on the rocks, which I dont know how I feel about. I mean theres only so much energy I can put into things, and this person wanted 150 percent from me, which if anyone really knows me, is hard for me to do. I think it will heal itself over the summer, but its just annoying that a fallout occured in the firstplace.

I dunno I mean my two best friends are named Joe and Joe. I think at some point ive blown each of them off, and them once in a while too, but I dont think something like that should be taken maliciously. I mean, shit just comes up. Theres always so much to take care of sometimes and before you know it you lose track of time. Obviously it shouldnt be made a habit of , but if it happens sometimes then it happens.

I think this summer im going to make it a point to become more alive. More animated, more eager, more everything. I think im going to need to. I need to understand what its like to take situations with a grain of salt. Because if I dont learn, I'm going to have a rough time with some things. You ever know that somethings coming , a situation that will cause hurt indirectly but in the longrun make you happy? its kind of like that.

eh, tired. more later.