Sigh's all around

the most important part of the pizza is the topping. A good topping can change the texture of the cheese, tomato sauce, and even the dough.

favorite toppings

broccoli
meatball
bacon
peppers
chicken

least favorite toppings

onions

thats it. I hate onions with such a passion. raw onions are especially ick. I cant explain why exactly but i just cant eat them often. now, if their cooked and mixed with other foods, sometimes I can deal, but other than that, their mostly a no no.

I keep getting especially angry for no reason. I'll be sitting at the computer, or even working out, and something will pop into my head, even the trivialest of problems. now, when I'm working out this is beneficial because I can at least focus it to something. but when im just sitting around, its a big no no. I end up just sitting around thinking, and eventually the feeling passes. One of the latest causes for the "simon eruption" is:

One sided shit. I hate it when your the one initiating every ounce of social interaction with someone. You'd think I'd just give up on some people, but when school starts hopefully I will involuntarily just fall out of some peoples lives due to being busy. This is the one period of time (october - now) when I can honestly say I've never passed up going out, or just having fun. And maybe its only me but I realize the people in my life now, maybe 20 percent of them will still be around two- three years from now. and thats an optimistic number. It's funny how I changed one area of my life ; quit smoking weed, and because of that I see some people a ton less. who knew. It's like they cant take the fact that theres someone who can deal with daily life without being mentally paralyzed for 4 hours a day, and who wants to hang out with someone who makes sense :(. This doesnt apply to everyone I know who smokes, just some people whom ive genuinely lost contact with. kinda sucks. The funniest thing about this is :

When I first got sick in august, it was due, 90 percent to the diet pills. the other 10 percent was just mixing them with depressents. My neurologist, who was indian, explained to me how when depressents are done alone and in moderation, sometimes they can be beneficial. But when mixed with a body that was so used to a stimulant for so long, it produces, well me. That being said. No one really told me to stop smoking. No one said I couldnt. I was sent to a pyschologist because of the fact that I admitted to a doctor I smoked, which at the time I didnt understand , but now I do. It's such a fucking waste. But I admit, early on I was tempted. So an idea popped in my head. If I tell people I just medically cant, I wont be bothered by temptation. And sure enough, it worked. And now, I just dont miss it at all, I think the final piece of the puzzle entered in recently, but still, the fact of the matter is im still off it, and for good.