Its Time To Make The Doughnuts

So im up early. I was actually up at 3AM. Thats what happens when you fall asleep after taking a sedative at 10:30. I'm probably going to take a walk, come back, and ponder the existance that is my life. It's so wierd, sometimes im really optimistic about things, and then other times I feel like its a hopeless race to the finish.

In other news. I am starting to feel it again. The romantic Zing that I had lost for a couple of months. and im starting to get in touch with friends that I hadnt spoke to for a while as well. Kinda making me feel happy.

I watched Smallville last night for the first time. I have to say its not a bad show. I mean, the acting wasnt the best, but I really liked how their building up to when he starts working at the Daily Planet. You can tell its meant to be a teen grabber though, with most of the storyline revolving around Clark and Lonna. I'm downloading the episode where he ends up fighting Aquaman; it should be noted that only the WB would attempt marking a hero that can talk with fishes.

This Wouldnt be a Simon Blog if ..

This was taken shortly after High School Ended.
amazing that was 3 years ago.
kinda glad it was too..

Reporting From

I just watched Batman Begins and I have to say that its probably one of the best movies ive seen this year. Fucking incredible. From beginning to end, especially end;flawless.

Played some Halo 2, had a good talk with John.



And as for the rest of the night,

Only the shadow knows!

Tuesday Morning

waking up in the morning has such a redeeming quality to it. for the first couple seconds you just dont care about anything, and your not even thinking. Granted, your breath stinks,and you cant see too well. But you just kinda lie there wrapped up in blankets thinking so many benevolent thoughts.

And then you have to make the decision.

Do I start this day, and possibly risk having it get worse than this very moment when the blankets are my shield and the pillow is my sword.

Or do I fall back asleep

And pretend this is just a dream that I can fix in my little head
on this little bed
and just wanting some things to be :)

And Heres One For the Homies

I just played a couple of hours of FFX, man what a good RPG. You dont really appreciate a good RPG until years later when you can take the time to understand the plot.

That being said

Theres some REALLY annoying scenes in that game

Yuna convincing Tidus to laugh. HA-HA-HAH-HAH-HAH- that's how everyone laughs!...
same with him convincing her to whistle. you dont whistle with two fucking fingers deepthroated in your mouth. I wasnt sure if he was trying to show her how to whistle or how to audition for Debbie Does Dallas.

Anyway, its been 2 days since ive been at uconn. its so fucking quiet here. I'm tempted to blast my speakers, but at 2 AM I dont think thats possible.

Zombies Ate My Neighbors

As I put in my away message, I am in the mood to kill zombies; a ton of zombies.

but heres the thing. consider this. if a zombie has the strength to rip through 6ft of dirt and rise to the surface, thats pretty damn strong. would a bullet really pierce through his zombie flesh, or bounce off like superman? I think I'd wanna be drunk. that way if something did happen to me i wouldnt really feel much....OH, and if you turn into a zombie while your drunk, do you become a zombie or a drunk zombie. do zombies have alcohol tolerance? hmmm. you have to think that if almost the entire world consists of zombies, then some of them must have been drunk at the point of "turning". and if zombies exist, then wouldnt vampires do the same?

then that poses the question/xhasperation

OH MY GOD A ZOMBIE/VAMPIRE BATTLE!!! TONS OF VAMPIRES AND TONS OF ZOMBIES!

and what about werewolves? im sure if zombies and vampires exist then why not werewolves? AND.. my biggest point. what about the spirits of the people that turned into zombies, would they have some way to combat the zombies?

spin that bitches

"there and back again"

So I just got back from spending close to two weeks (8 days and then 5 days in a row) at uconn. I dont think I spent one night sober, okay.. maybe one. I made friends with most of the acting majors, and made out with a pyschology major (does that count for credits.. I have to check)

And yet what comes out of this? I stopped caring, thinking every little significant thing in my life has to mean something. I used to take every little event as some epiphany, and now, literally "whatever". it was nice just taking every day and enjoying it. I ate my ass off and didnt give a shit if i gained a smidgette of a pound. I talked to so many people and didnt care if it turns into something ,in fact I preferred it didnt.

and now im home. it almost felt like i had been on vacation, everything here is actually slightly foriegn. I gotta get back into a routine of some sort, but I consider today 'burnout'from the last two weeks.

me and joe beat xmen legends 2 in less than 3 days.. im not sure to be proud of that or a little sad, but we did it! it involved an all nighter and many many drinks but we got it done. (of course I left the game there, almost symbolically). And it rained all 8 days I was there, to be said by this girl laura who refers to me on a consistant basis as "mike simon" , not mike, not simon, but both combined "well if it rains for 32 more days its the apocolypse". well said. its kind of ironic that the rainiest week of the year was the most fun for me.


as my neurologist told me last week "life is beautiful" yes, yes it is. and I have to start taking advantage of it in every single way.

p.s.

New Franz Ferdinand album = awesome
Jimmy Eat World EP = awesome
and that damn killers album keeps winding up on my playlist.

"Alternative Home"

well ive been at uconn essentially since friday. heading to admissions today and financial aid to see if I can get in for next year. I: used to think that if I went to a school like this id be distracted, but honestly I think what I need is to throw myself into a situation where I have to go. Community is too optional for me I think; at least i'd like to think thats what it is.

walked/lifted some this weekend for the first time in a month ish, definitely was more taxing but feels good to be getting back on track.

Cant wait to get the new Jimmy Eat World. I got the new Death Cab for Cutie the other day, pretty damn good

You know, maybe its the whole scare i had earlier, but it really irks me when people avoid situations of potential joy because of the potential risk of being hurt. Life is waaaaay too short and before you know it, its gone. As Kevin Spacey says in American Beauty
"I quickly loved every moment of my small, meaningless life"

I need to make myself happy, but you know how awesome it would be to make someone else happy? eh, one day.